It's Never Easy Admitting Failure...

Oh, here I am!!!!

I've been sitting here, trying to think about how I'm going to approach this blog post.  It's never easy admitting that you have been sliding backwards in your weight loss journey.  But it's time I throw up the white flag and admit it.  I have gained some of my weight back.  Enough that I need to be held accountable for it.  And to start being held accountable, it's going to start here today with this first blog post since December 2013.

So, where have I been?  NOT working out.  NOT watching my food intake.  NOT eating healthy.  NOT food planning.  NOT keeping appointments with my surgeon..  Basically, I've been doing nothing.  There you have it-I haven't been accountable for a single thing in my weight loss life, including this blog.  Having this blog being public and shared on my social media was one way of keeping myself in check.  You all were unknowingly part of what kept me going and kept me aware of my weight loss (or lack thereof right now).

I have gained back some weight-too much for me to be comfortable with.  I'm finding myself buying bigger shirts, or pulling out older clothes from early on in my journey.  This needs to stop, there's no excuse for this, but believe me, I've managed to find every one of them in the book.  "But I work 12 hour shifts."  "It's too hard to plan ahead on a shift like this."  "I don't get off of work until 7pm, by then it's too late to go for a walk."  "I don't like to drink plain water."  And those are just the excuses on the days I work!  I didn't come this far to fail, failure is not an option.  

Now that I've fessed up, it's time to do something about it.  It's only a lot of hot air if you don't have a plan of attack or goals in place.  

• The first thing I'm going to do is schedule an appointment with my surgeon and nutritionist.  Are they going to be unhappy?  Yes.  Do I need to hear it?  Yes.  It's part of being held accountable.
• Exercise.  Plain and simple.  That's it.  I miss running, I really do.  I'm not sure I'll ever get back to that point, but I sure as heck need to try!
• Menu Planning/Planning Ahead.  I did very well when I was doing this.  Every WLS person knows our daily struggle and anxiety with food.  Not planning ahead can turn into a downward spiral very quickly.  And once you get out of the habit, it's even easier to just keep going down the rabbit hole.
• Stay Positive.  The changes that I made back in 2010 did not form overnight.  The weight I've put on in the last almost 3 years didn't come on overnight, so it's not going to go away overnight. 
• Keep this blog going, even if people I know don't read it, it's out there which means someone will see it.  

They say it takes about 21 days to form a habit, so hang in there with me.  You  may not hear from me daily, but I'm not going off the grid again.  THE Midwest Former Fat Girl is back!

Until next time!

Kates